sometimes I think Alice hates me. she’ll cry and cry and cry for me then I feel like once Daniel gets home shes fine for him. wtf. I am your mother. then I think I’m my mother. and that’s just no good cuz I hated my mother, but I also had legit reasons. she was an alcoholic. I am not. maybe I’m too rough with her? when I change her positions slow down with her? she has grown a bit though. up to 9 pounds. this makes my happy.
In other news, went to craft night and made a horrible dream catcher. it’s a rounded out hanger with string on it. I really, Really suck and arts and crafts. everything I make turn to crap and if it does look good, its by accident. once, I put some dead sticks on a wall and it turned out awesome. something people would pay good money for, but I try to mog pog something and it turns to crap. yep, I’m the kid that failed art class. however if you gave me a story line I could probably write a decent story.
nothing terribly interesting has happened lately though. We went out and saw Fast 7. Daniel really wanted to go to it. when it comes down to what I want to do, I always reply with “I don’t know” because there isn’t anything in this town I want to do. there is eating, movies, grocery shop. that’s it! I would say hang out with friends but I don’t have any! so I sit here all day and do a bunch of chores and grocery shop because everyone is too busy doing other things. ok I’m done with that rant.
the cat is still alive, child is sleeping and blog is updated. who really reads this? I’m going to go in my room now and pretend to put clothes away. you. carry on.
On the first day of spring, a solar eclipse happened on Earth, Something else also, happened on Earth. I became a mother. Miss Alice-Trinity was born a week and three days ago. So far I’ve kept her alive with the help of my betrothed, Daniel. I never realized how big my cat was until I brought her home.
Now she sleeps in a Boppy pillow next to me giving me, a few spare moments to type this out, Though I should be sleeping.
So far I feel motherhood is hilarious and ridiculous at the same time. I don’t think I’ve laughed at one person so much in a long time. Her facial expressions are ridiculous and her not having teeth yet is also comical. of course one would hope she doesn’t have teeth yet being only a week old.
The ridiculous part is that all she mostly does is sleep, eat and poop. while awake she will gaze off at the walls or at my face. and if that’s not happening she is screaming at me that she has gas and there is nothing I can do but wait it out while she yells in my ear.
There is a lot of milk and blood involved in this so far. Milk leaking from me like a faucet, drenching shirts and pants and smelling awful. waking up in the morning with a wet shirt makes me feel oh so sexy, not.
I have yet to shave my legs since about two-months ago and am having a period that won’t end for a while.
I can’t wait for her to be less floppy. This is the adventure. Follow me and lets see what happens next.